The carpet was red. Blood red. I was collecting the little white crumbs that were scattered all over. And then I woke up. Dreams like that always lead me to pray: “God, what are you trying to tell me?” Immediately, the verse about the Gentile woman who asked Jesus for her daughter’s healing came to mind:
A woman cried out to Him, saying, “Have mercy on me…My daughter is severely demon-possessed…” But He answered and said, “I was not sent except to the lost sheep of the house of Israel…It is not good to take the children’s bread and throw it to the little dogs. ”And she said, “Yes, Lord, yet even the little dogs eat the crumbs which fall from their masters’ table.” Matt 15:21-27 (condensed)
I am that woman…collecting God’s leftovers – his crumbs. I remember as a kid I would find a rogue SweetTart in the cushions of our minivan. Gross, right? Apparently, candy doesn’t have an expiration date when you’re eight. I’d pop that sweet thing in my mouth. Mmmmm…but then it was gone. I would search a little more and come up empty-handed. And disappointed.
The thing about crumbs is:
- You are always looking for them.
- You are excited to get them.
- You are always left wanting more.
We are no longer called to the crumbs, we are called to feast at the table
At one point, the Gentiles were not the primary goal of Christ’s ministry on Earth. But because of the divine rejection of the Gospel, we were grafted in. (Romans 11:15-18) In Acts 10, Peter is amazed after he witnessed the Holy Spirit being poured out on the non-Jews. We are now part of God’s family — part of the feast. (Matthew 22:1-14)
What does that mean for us?
It means that we no longer have to get down on our hands and knees and beg for God’s blessings, but we can ask boldly. (Hebrews 4:16) Jesus was astonished at the bold faith of the Gentile woman and granted her request. Sometimes I forget this. That God wants me to act in faith, not on feelings or the approval of others.
Crumbs are like the praises of man
Searching for the approval of others can kind of being like collecting crumbs, too. But they are usually too few and too far between to satisfy our eternal appetite. Putting our trust in worldly accolades leaves us wanting…and desperate. When they are abundant, we are happy. But when they cease, we feel unworthy.
God wants us to stop picking up the crumbs of man’s approval and sit at the table of HIS approval.
Recently, I watched Iron Lady. Meryl Streep plays Margaret Thatcher. Mrs. Thatcher was the Prime Minister of the United Kingdom from 1979 to 1990. She was extremely conservative and adamantly opposed socialism. It was interesting to watch the reenactment of her political career because of the public’s response to her policies. One day they were throwing roses at her feet, a few months later they were bombing her house/car, and when the Berlin Wall fell they praised her name. Fickle. That is the best word to describe people’s opinions about other people. Jesus knew this. He knew that the very people that professed to love him would betray him. If the Son of God couldn’t rely on the opinions of others for his self-worth, how much less can we? When I’m writing a blog post I want everyone to “Like” it on Facebook or comment below the post telling me how it profoundly affected their day. That makes me feel like I’m doing something right, something worthy. I shows my faithless heart that I’m on the right track. But the problem is: What if no one likes my blog post? What if no one comments? I had these thoughts the other day:
- What if I’m called to write ONLY so I grow closer to God?
- What if I die and I never become a well known author?
- Is that enough?
I wish I could say that I answered: Yes, God. That’s enough for me. But I didn’t.
But I desperately want to stop searching for crumbs. I want to cease being hungry. I am ready to sit at the table.
And hopefully that accounts for something. If you are like me…begging for blessings from God: Have faith and boldly ask, knowing you’ve received it.
I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours. Mark 11:24
If you are like me…begging for approval from man: Make this verse your banner:
And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men,knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ. Colossians 3:23-24
Head covering Christian woman who loves good wine, coffee, stinky cheese and missionary books. My favorite dessert is Peanut Butter Chocolate Cheesecake. I am a Christian author, blogger, and speaker. I fell in love with my husband because he had rain drops on his glasses (true story). In my spare time I homeschool my six children (5 girls, 2 boys).